Weekly. 4/14

I’ve been very late with my posts lately, and it’s entirely my fault to be honest. I’ve taken Lazy Sundays to the extreme by not doing anything productive at all. Well, I do count my yoga class to be the only shining beacon of Sunday, then everything after that is just spent in bed and trying to catch up on some sleep. What’s weird though is that I have been sleeping 7 hours every day but I still feel very tired. I rationalize this with the earlier and intense work schedule, plus fitness time as well. I’ll get used to it, or my body will give up. Let’s see which comes victorious.

So this week has been very good to me at work. I received amazing feedback from my customer and I got it through my manager. It’s good to feel validated that what you are doing actually makes sense and also recognized. This is good, and the right motivation for all the stress I’m enduring. Yes, this is worth it.

Volleyball for me is just inconsistent. My game was really off last Wednesday, but my Monday and Thursday were relatively good. I really need to work on consistency and getting more confidence inside the court. I was hitting really good tonight so it was really nice. The trade off is that my reception is just plain terrible. I really need to work on that, and see how I can improve further. Tomorrow is my rest day, so I’ll just be at home trying to catch up with some more work, or I’ll probably head to Rookwood to try to be connected to the world and work from there. Let’s see where inspiration will bring me.

Last Saturday, we finally did our pot luck! I made dessert this time with Leche Flan and Mango Ice Box Cake. I was supposed to get some Lemon Daffodil from BonBonnerie (it’s the cake of the month), but Irene wished the mango ice box. I bought a case of mangoes (a steal!) from Whole Foods that Friday, so it makes sense to actually just make the ref cake. I’ll get this Lemon Daffodil soon!

I think that’s that for now. More updates soon!

Weekly. 4/8

Ok, this is coming in late but better late than never, right? Last week was awesome because there were loads of things that happened that I consider good. Top of the list is that I finally did my biometrics appointment for my GC! I went to USCIS last Wednesday and submitted my fingerprints, picture and signature. If I do not get any issues, I should get my GC soon! I am so happy about it. It’s now a waiting game so I will just have to be patient and see how quick this will be. 

I also picked up my friend Irene from the airport! She’s been in the Cebu since October so I was pretty happy to welcome her back here in Cincinnati with Amaia, Matias and her mom. It’s been pretty quiet here when she was gone and now, I can have my “partner in crime” once again in eating out, shopping or just cooking in. 

Work has been very tiring, but I feel motivated to actually trudge on day-by-day. I talked to Dave about it earlier. Even if I feel that my task list is ever-growing and I see new risks/issues cropping up, I still feel energized because I see progress. I see things getting accomplished, and I see the light at the end of the tunnel. The idea that all of the things I do and manage is directed to something with an endpoint makes it more palatable and gives me the extra oomph to stand up and move forward. 

Last Friday, I went out again after such a long time. I think the last time I really went out was last year in Diamond Palace and it was very meh. It’s my first time to go Below Zero and it was a bit interesting to see very familiar faces from the past. Two in particular were good friends of someone I dated before. I did not greet them or anything because I’m just like that. I mean, I really do not know how to be cordial at the very least with them since the last time I really talked to them was 2 years ago. It’s just weird. Also, I think age is catching up on me… really! With work, volleyball, and working out, going out is just really tiring. I’d definitely go for more volleyball and gym time rather than head out til 2AM! 

On a more personal note, well, I’ve been talking to someone lately but I do not really know what this is yet. It can lead to something and I do like to think of that possibility. It’s strange that I do not have much reservations even if there are some things that would have made me think twice and run away. There’s this inexplicable connection that I’d like to explore and see where it goes. Yes, I’m good with that for now. 

Weekly. 3/30

I’m taking a quick break in finishing a bunch of trainings being required by The Company (TC). Most of the stuff I know already through practice, but I need to do some assessment exams as well so I need to take the trainings again and it is taking some time. The good thing though is that I can file them as PDUs for my PMP credential. I might actually hit my 60 PDUs early on after going through all of these trainings and other knowledge sharing sessions I regularly attend this year. In a way, Another positive spin is that these self-enriching activities further develop my skill and make me better. So, all in all, it’s a win for me. Speaking of becoming better, I’ve been reading tips and tools that helped other project managers succeed. I’m confident with my skills, but I know that there are always opportunity areas that I need to work on. One thing I learned in managing projects is that I do not have all the answers and I also need help. 

I’m still adjusting to work. I’m putting in extra hours to cope and make sure that I get things right. The time zone is not ideal to be honest. It makes it tough that I can only work with them in the afternoon. I’ve tried to adjust my time earlier, but I do not think my body can take a 3AM start of work long term. I’m still thinking how to properly manage that. I’ve been hearing some small issues cropping up but they are not showstopping ones as of now. I need to cut it early and take control of the story. Let’s see how things will line up. 

Other than work, nothing is really happening in my life that’s a bit exciting. I’ve been settled to my routine of volleyball, work, and yoga. I should not really complain about it because this is comforting for me. I’ve always wanted routines and a semblance of order so I should take this. I’ll probably introduce some small changes there and there and I need to plan them carefully. Right now, I am heavily considering moving apartments this year. I really, really want a dog and I cannot keep one in my apartment. My lease will end in October but I would need to send in a notice by August at the latest and then find a new place by October. This also means that I am looking to stay in Cincinnati indefinitely. This should keep me anchored more and I’m so excited about that. :)

 

Frieda’s

 

Diane has always raved about Frieda’s Dessert. I did not really got into it mainly because I was so much into Paleo then that going into a bakery is pretty much tempting myself to get these goodies. Today though, I decided to succumb to my curiosity and oh my gosh, it’s such an amazing treat!

I just tried the chocolate croissant and it is to die-for! I still have an almond croissant, a lemon cupcake and chocolate banana loaf. Yes, I kinda went overboard ($21 of bread) but it’s just too good! I’m so happy for this find and I’ll definitely be a regular when I decide to cheat. Sorry, Paleo!

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Design Fixation.

I get frustrated with feel and look. I’m a big supporter of clean and minimalist design and I regularly struggle with that in terms of my blog, my email signature/font, and presentations. My problem is that I get this fixation on making things “look right”. I can spend hours just to “perfect” something and I get a bit taken aback if something I’m seeing is just weird. For example, I find Comic Sans too weird to see in a business email. I hope I’m not alone on this one.

For the past hour, I’ve been tinkering with my blog theme and ended up using Suits… again. I do not know how long this will take but I do not understand the current obsession with these LARGE fonts in the free themes available. Anything size 11 and beyond is just big for me already. I hope they churn out a theme with a relatively small font for me so I can finally stick to one. Better yet, I wish I can just freely customize the blog font for free and not pay for custom design. I might have case of OCD with font, but I’m too cheap to shell out $99 just to make my font smaller.

Self-made.. Life problems. Gah.

 Quick Edit: I’m now in 2012 theme. Yeah, that changed fast. 

Early.

This day just started very early. I woke up at 4am without my alarm. Of course I did not get out of bed. I was still waiting for my 6am alarm. I doze off at around 5 but sadly, my alarm set at 6 woke me up. I washed up, drank my cup of joe and had a quick breakfast. It was 6:55 when I finished my morning routine. I walked to my bus stop but had to jog a bit coz it arrived earlier than its intended schedule.

All in all, I did good. Quick early start for a Monday. And extra gratitude for catching the bus!

Weekly 3/23

I don’t know why but I am much more productive when I am in Starbucks. I guess old habits really die hard. I remember my Ateneo days when I would study in Starbucks for an exam, and I would be mostly productive even if it’s a bit busy/noisy. I guess the little sense of chaos makes me focus on what I am doing. When I am alone at home, the silence just makes my mind travel to different things making it difficult to focus. At least I know what I need to do which will make me function productively. Always good. 

This week was so tiring for me physically and mentally. The big shift in my work hours is just making me feel more fatigued than ever. Usually, I can wake up at 7 am and catch the 740 or 815 bus to the office, or start working if I work from home. With this project, most people I work with are in Europe and Asia. I have to set meetings from 6-8 to be able to maximize the common times of US, Asia, and Europe. It does not make sense not to adjust my time and lose 2-3 hours of productivity with them. I wake up now at 530 or 6 am to shake off the fog in my head so I can start working earlier than usual. I know that I will eventually get this new routine, but body clock changes suck.

That’s work, but outside of it, I feel tired as well with volleyball and working out. I really do not know how Dave or other people who work out every day do it. I am so envious with their focus, stamina and can-do attitude! I just need to focus on the end goal and suck it up.

Some good news! I have some good progress with my GC. I finally got an email from the firm that my fingerprinting has been scheduled. This has distracted me lately to be honest because the delay was worrying me. Now that I have that set, it’s another thing off my mind and I can really just wait it out after this. What is weird though is that I did not get the mail about it (I should get the notice too). I plan to wait it out til Monday to see if any mail will arrive. If not, I’ll just notify the firm and they will send me their copy. 

Final thoughts for this week that I really need to internalize and live by… you cannot have everything. This has been in my mind lately actually and I’ve been trying to adhere to it. Personally, I’ve been kicking myself and going into self-pity parties about not being able to get things that I want which I was fighting for. I would think about other people who just get things easily, but I always have to struggle for it. Or, I would compare myself to others and think that they’re so lucky. Sometimes, my judge-y thoughts would even cross the idea that I think he does not deserve it but he still gets that. I know bad thoughts, but it is what it is.

I should really just think that there are people who are in worse positions than me, and I should still feel grateful with my luck. For example, the family of those passengers in MH370 (still missing until now). It must be really crazy for them not knowing what happened to their love ones. Or, those trapped in wars. I’m definitely in a better spot than them. Another example is with one of my friends who’s lucky enough to find love, but not that blessed in the career department. My point is that the story of humanity shows us that we cannot have it all every time. If that is the case, there would be no poverty, wars, or depression. History shows us that there will always be lost causes. It is something that we need to accept. It’s not being defeatist, but it’s accepting one’s own reality and working with it. What really matters is what we do with our lives, and not being immobilized with the idea of losing. There are lucky people who seem to get everything or get things easy. That’s life. Why dwell on those? It would just makes you feel bad. Just focus on things that work for you and build on that. But! It also does not mean that you close your doors on trying to achieve what you want. Keep the dream alive because maybe someday you will get that. It is a possibility and you hold on to that, but do not let that centrally hold your life. It’s just one of the threads in your life. There are things to be thankful for and we should celebrate them!