Dragging myself out of bed today was extra difficult. I don’t know but I’m just not feeling well today, but I need to get my ass to work and make sure things get done.
I need ways to motivate myself. Sighs. On the bright side, I’m eating champorado for breakfast! So good!
I really need to blog some more. I need to just write, write, write and examine how I live life. It’s been a pretty strange few weeks for me because work has totally taken over most of my life. A glimpse of my day —
- 430am: wake up and then wash up a bit to shake off the sleepiness.
- 5:00 am: go online already and start working.
- 6:00 am: prepare breakfast and get ready for work while checking emails, IMs
- 6:40 am: leave the apartment for the office (bus or car)
- 7:15 am: arrive at the office and work again.
- 12nn: lunch break
- 1:00 pm: work again.
- 3:30 pm: head home via bus or car
- 4:15 pm: arrive at home and do some work again while eating a light snack
- 5:30 pm to 9:30 pm: post-work life (volleyball, gym, food, TV, etc.)
I’ve been feeling really tired lately because of work and also the physical activities I do. It gets to the point that I say to myself, what’s the point of this? And, that is the million dollar question that I wish I can answer clearly. I wish I can say I’m living for my passion, or for a certain personal purpose, but there’s not. Work is there so I can earn a living and be able to live a comfortable life. Volleyball plays as my break to all the things I do but it’s really taking a toll on my body. I guess I need to research more on conditioning and maintaining my body so I do not suffer in the long term.
I don’t want to just end this with my usual rant so I want to write about 2 movies I’ve seen that I really enjoyed — Boyhood and Nymphomaniac: Volume 1. It’s weird to see it in the same sentence but those are well-made and well-written movies. I like Boyhood with Linklater’s storytelling of chronicling a boy’s life from his younger age to being an adult. It’s a nice way to put things in perspective on how things affect children, and how they change through age. Nymphomaniac is an interesting one though because even as it is graphic, there’s a sense of sadness in the story of Joe. I like how this volume ended where Joe cried “I can’t feel anything“. It just goes deep as her nymphomania also reflects her life.
Pic is from Pinoy Strong!
It is nice to be able to just wind down and connect with friends. Even if I consider myself as an introvert, I equally crave alone time with my thoughts, and time with people I like to be with. You’re able to get different perspectives and share life experiences. Yesterday was just that. I got to spend some quality time with Dave and Diane. The weather was amazing as well so it was very relaxing. Hoping for more downtime with friends!
I finally said goodbye to my old Toyota and got myself a new one — a 2015 VW Golf! I was supposed to get a Mazda 3 SGT, but it was just not going anywhere so I ended up with a Golf.
So the story here is that I really wanted to upgrade my car already and get a nicer one with all the bells and whistles. A friend of a friend was moving to Cincinnati and was looking for a car. He checked the trusty Toyota and he was interested to get it. So, I had to scramble to get a new one.
To be honest, I was really deadset to get a Mazda 3 Hatchback. I checked out a white one and LOVED driving it. The problem was that the white color bothered me coz I knew it will be a dirty car. I was gunning for a red one, but no one had it available and the dealers did not really checked on it quickly. Last Sunday, JV wanted to test drive the Beetle convertibles and we headed to the VW dealership. I was just exploring around the showroom when I inspected further the new Golf. Apparently, it just arrived a few days ago and it’s the 2015 Golf! I got curious and got sold to it when I did a test drive. I closed the deal on that same day! It was unexpected, but expected at the same time since I was really planning on getting a car, but not just a VW. I guess this is my birthday gift to myself! Haha!
It has been a very busy few weeks for me. Work has been very crazy and I just never found the time to sit down and really put some updates in my blog. I should have taken a breather and just chill a bit, and not just focus on work. #LifeLesson I’ve been really tired lately because of the amount of time I put in at work. The positive side of this is that I do not dwell much on life thoughts. Yey?
I turned 31 this year. Unlike previous years, I ended up spending it in Cincinnati. I was supposed to go Chicago over that weekend but work was just just too busy (I had to work weekends too!) and I was already dead beat tired. I did not want to complicate it further by heading to Chicago and juggle work, visa appointment and a little R&R time. Yes, work trumped it all. BUT, I did get to spend it with friends.
I went out on Saturday night with JV. Dr. Ryan, and SM in OTR. We tried A Tavola which was OK, then went to BZ for some drinks and dancing. Let’s just say 3 vodka sprites make me very, very happy!
Sunday night was spent with the Boloquis with amazing food. Steak, wine and Whole Foods Tiramisu! Perfect! :) So, it was still a nice birthday weekend for me. It’s not like my NYC or Chicago birthday trips, but it’s a good downtime for me as well.
It’s the last year that I’m in the calendar, and I still feel a bit aimless, but grounded. I know what I want out of life, and I just do not feel that I’m doing something actively to make them happen. I have time to figure it out so just take it day by day and live life! Thanks life for the 31 years… and counting!
How do you fill the silence when that’s all you hear? Do you make noise or do you look for meaningful music to soothe your spirits? Time to sleep.
I don’t know why I tend to cling to people and hope that they will be better to me. I should learn when to give up and when to hold on. It’s really tough setting expectations on people who you know will never ever meet that mental image you have created. You just need to let them grow into who they are and determine where you place in his world. If it’s not there, move on. Why bother? It’s an unnecessary burden you bring upon yourself.
Life oh life! Why are you so complicated?!
update: world, it’s your turn. I’m done.