It’s better.

My foot seems to be better today. It is not back to normal (far from it!), but it’s an improvement from Saturday’s swollen grapefruit look. I visited a doctor yesterday and he confirmed that I did not have a fracture. I was relieved with that news. I just tore one ligament (at the right side where it was swollen), and I should be able to walk better in the next few days. But, I have to give volleyball a rest for the next 2 weeks or so. I’ll listen to my body and see when I’m ready. Today, I was able to drive to Starbucks (Happy Hour!) albeit slowly and walked to Pipkin Market for some vegetables I needed for my Beef Kaldereta. I know that I’m not yet ready to drive normally because my right foot still feels a bit heavy. Short trips in slow roads are my limits so far. Let’s see how my foot feels tomorrow. I’m hoping to get out of my apartment by Thursday at the very least.

I finally succumbed and got a TV cable subscription. I’m such a late bloomer on this but I just thought that I need some more entertainment at home. I can DVR the TV shows I follow, and I can finally watch some sports! Some background — I wanted to watch some NCAA volleyball games, but they’re only available with an ESPN subscription. That sucked! Well, I will finally get one and I can watch more TV! Let’s see what will happen tomorrow and I’ll update this space.

I feel more positive today because I am seeing progress with my foot. There were some spots of frustration from work, but nothing I could handle with some time and coordination. I need to focus more on work and the things I need to do. I get distracted very easily and I need to strengthn my focus and resolve.

Not so good…

Today, I sprained/broke my ankle in volleyball. I think I was blocking someone and I landed in a bad angle. I had to excuse myself for the rest of the games. Well, I still need to visit the Priority Care clinic tomorrow morning so I am not sure if I broke it or just sprained it. I am hoping it’s just a sprain. Either way, my ankle is like a swollen tennis ball and it sucks big time! It’s my first time to get a sprain / fracture in my life so this is something that’s pretty new for me. I am indeed getting old and my “too active” lifestyle might be catching up on me. I am not sure if I need to train more, or use more tools to avoid these instances. That’s still something I need to figure out in the next few days.

I have been feeling really tired lately. I am not really into work, or doing some of the things I usually do. Volleyball is the only exception, but I think I have to skip that for the next couple of weeks. I need to pick myself up and motivate myself to succeed and move forward. I think a part of this is that I feel that my heart is not in my work anymore. I am just going through the motions, but I am not really passionate about it. I don’t know if it’s the situation with the company (WFRs, etc), or my situation (hoping for more opportunities) ,but I need to figure this out quickly before I get myself in deep shit.

It’s time to rest for now and see how my situation will be tomorrow.


Pi Day!

It is Pi day y’all! For the non-geeks, today is March 14 (3/14/15) and that corresponds to 3.1415. Ergo, Pi day.

This week has been very stressful for me. When the clock read 5:00pm yesterday, I was so ecstatic because it gives me some breathing room to take a break and just enjoy a few days off and not deal with work and all the busyness that goes with it.

This week started off with sick days. I had to take Monday and Tuesday off because of severe soreness in my throat. It was like swallowing shards of glass! I thought that it was just gonna pass after some rest but when I did not sleep well on Monday night, I knew I had to bring in the heavy guns. I called up my PCP but there seems to be no available slots that Tuesday. I opted to just go to the TriHealth Priority Care in Mason. I got two friends who recommended that provider already, and was very satisfied with the service. I was given Prednisone to alleviate the inflammation in my throat, and some antibiotics just in case. By Wednesday, I did not feel much pain but I had full blown colds which was another terrible thing. I worked from home that day, but decided to go to the office on Thursday and Friday to catch up on some face-to-face work needed to be done. I still had the sniffles, but you got to do what you have to do. Those two days have been packed with meetings and additional items to my ever-growing to-do list. On the bright side, I really felt productive and was able to focus in addressing most of my work. I was so tired after those days though.

Other than my miserable week due to sickness, the weather has been awesome!  We’ve been getting relatively warm weather (>40s). It feels so good not to layer up just to go out! I was able to walk earlier to the post office (to mail my tax returns) sporting a light jacket! I’m so excited for the weather to warm up some more!

In other news, one of the opportunities I was looking at fell through. It seemed like I did not have much experience in ground up projects which made me question my credentials a bit. I’m still looking out what’s available and see where it will end up. Let’s see!

Spring Forward day!

It is Spring Forward day meaning I lose an hour. It is still a lazy start and I need to do get to the following today:

  • Clean my apartment – my place is a mess! I seriously need to vacuum my apartment because I’ve been sneezing and breaking out lately. Mental note: borrow JV’s steam vacuum for a more thorough clean when it warms up more.
  • Go to the gym – I really need to put in some a workout. I’ve been pretty diligent lately and I think I am seeing some benefits already. Or, maybe I am imagining things. I also need to work on my jump technique to really ensure that my knees do not get the brunt of the impact. I think I am jumping wrong. I wish there’s an available volleyball clinic for adults that can help me out.
  • Meet JV and Dr. Ryan for lunch – Lunch at Sleepy Bee later on!
  • Catch up some work – I need to find time to focus and develop more the SOW and staffing plans for my project.
  • Blog on my February progress – It’s already March 8 and I need to write about how I progressed last month in terms of my goals.
  • Plan out my finances for the next few months – my mom gave me sad news last night. She needs to undergo some surgery for her uterus because she of myomas and a cyst. I guess it is part of aging and paying off the abuse and neglect when she was younger. It is something needed to be settled so I just need to see what trade offs happen.

I really cannot keep a promise to myself. I played volleyball earlier and I was just terrible in setting. I usually set well but today was just filled with bad sets that it frustrated me so much. Chris even told me to just stop overthinking it and just let it. All I need is to train better in terms of setting. I don’t have any dreams to be a setter since I still prefer being a Libero or an opposite hitter. Oh well, it is what it is. So much things to learn and train for. 

March 1

We are already in the last month of the first quarter of 2015! January and February really flies by so fast that it’s so ridiculous. I feel that I am trying to chase after the days and wishing that I get some progress in what I want to achieve this year. Slowly, it’s getting there but it keeps me scratching my head on some areas where they’re just flat.

I ended my little vacation last Monday. Portland and Seattle are pretty cities. I see more of myself living in Seattle because of the diversity and it seemed more metro as compared to Portland. But, Portland is not bad at all especially when it comes to the food scene. Mother’s, a brunch place I discovered was just amazing! Then, Dan and I ate at this food truck in Hawthorne called Carte Blanche. The food was so great! Of course, shopping in Portland is cheaper because there is no sales tax. It’s just a shame that there’s no Zara, Uniqlo, or my other staple stops in a shopping run. In Seattle, the holy grail for me is definitely Din Tai Fung. Their XLB is still the best and undefeatable! There were mixed feelings swirling in my head about this trip though. It was not pure bliss. I got some episodes where I just want to scream and just leave, but I just went through the days one day at a time and hope for a light in the tunnel. No one was at fault, but maybe it is because people (including me) change. We like or dislike things that we can easily accept or let go in the past. Maybe it’s really becoming the person with a strong resolve and knowing what you want (and do not want).

Work this week has been really hectic. I was in whole-day workshops for 4 days and it was just draining. The good thing though is that I was finally able to meet people that I have worked with, and people I am working with. Meeting them makes it more personal in a way because they are not just an email, phone call, or instant message. I can put a person behind it and see how they are in real life.

I told myself that I will stay away from volleyball to let my left knee heal. That promise got chucked out of the window and I played last Tuesday and Thursday. I think it was a good checkpoint if my knees can take it (the answer is no). I know that I need more time to heal and really strengthen myself further. If I want to play for more years, I need to be smart about it and listen to my body. So, I’ll probably rest more and work on more strengthening exercises. Let’s see where this brings me.

Finally! House of Cards was made available last Friday and I finished all 13 episodes yesterday. It was a draining few days watching all of them in almost one go. Robin Wright and Kevin Spacey acted extremely good, but the story did not seem to be compelling enough. I felt that it was very subdued with no triumphant themes that made me root for Frank and Claire in the first two seasons. There was a lot of Doug Stamper episodes and I think giving him more screen time made it more palatable because of his struggles carried over from the second season. Well, this show is done for me and I will have to wait for another year for the fourth season to appear in Netflix. Maybe I can like that more.

dreams end when you wake up.

Dreams end when you wake up.

I was talking to Dave earlier about continuously dreaming until at one point, you realize it’s not for you. We dream all the time but it’s an idealized future without uncontrollable or unknown variables. It’s your made up reality where you achieve a goal. This dream fuels us to work harder to achieve it until you reach that point. A few things could happen, 1) the goal is similar to what you have imagined and you are left satisfied, 2) the goal is so far out that you just want to abandon it, or 3) you just live with it making the most out of it. Personally, moving abroad was always a dream. It’s a combination of 1) and 3) for me because for the most part, I am happy. I did imagine that I’d find a partner along the way, but it seems to be just a dream once again. I manage my expectations and adjust with what I have. I’m not the 100% content, but it’s enough for me to believe that the situation is still acceptable.