A few years back, I hated yogurt. It’s one of those products that you’ll never see me eat. It’s not that I’m allergic to it, but I was never a fan of tart or sour food, especially in creamy form. It tasted and smelled weird for me. I remember one time when I went out for an “eyeball” (how early 2000s!) in Manila, we went to a yogurt place. I swallowed my pride and went for it. I still did not like and that meet up was never repeated.
Fast forward to now and it’s considered a staple in my diet. I get eat Greek yogurt almost every day. It has very good protein content (20 grams in a serving), and it’s ridiculously good. My favorite right now is Trader Joe’s whole milk vanilla bean Greek yogurt. I can literally devour an entire tub of that goodness! Super good. I also eat the 0% plain ones and to make it more satisfying, I add a serving of fruit (strawberry, banana, pineapple and the like).
It’s so strange how my palate has changed. I can attribute that to motivation. If you want something, you’ll eventually bring down your walls and take risks. That’s what I have done. It all started during my Paleo journey a few years back where I explored healthier options. I took out sugar, and complex carbs and just relied on simple and fresh food items. Then now with the Lean Gains + IIFYM (if it fits your macros) approach, I try to explore high protein options! The good news is that it’s working. Weight is down to 147 (from 154) and my body fat is at 17.3% (from 23%)! It does not end and there’s room for further growth. I know I will need to push further. I need to find more options and see to what levels can I reach. It’s something I am excited about and probably one of the few things going on in my life.
My body is so sore this morning. I am still not used to losing an hour of sleep due to daylight savings, and I subbed as libero in JV’s team last night. Oh man… I’m paying for it now.
I’ll post something more meaningful next time since my meeting will start soon. Nothing major, but something blog-worthy.
I have been feeling overwhelmed with a strong feeling of helplessness. I like being able to fix something and I feel good about it. I think that’s why I enjoy being in IT. I am able to fix problems. I like being able to remove barriers even if it’s a thankless job. So the opposite is also distressing. I really spiral out of control if I feel helpless or if I feel that I cannot do something to fix something. My brain tries to find paths to a viable solution but I just cannot connect. But at the same time, objectively speaking, I feel that is not the case. I have the resources at my disposable to do something. What’s missing is the energy that pushes me towards a solution. Inertia. All I do is waste around and get stuck in a rut. What I know is that it’s a mindset. It’s not a fact. I just do not have the drive to lift a finger and be that agent of change. I do not feel driven or motivated to do that. And that is the biggest thing missing right now — the ability to spark and keep one’s motivation. Other find it easy to jumpstart their inner fire and just get things done but I just do not have that right now. Il’ll find it. I know i will. I have to.
reading about trump’s plan on immigration is frightening. he has already proposed a wall that is such a waste of money. increasing border control would be a better approach in handling this but this is trump – he needs to see something tangible to say it’s his even if it’s worthless. he has stopped the refugee settlement program which is very uncharitable. and the scariest part, is that he has blocked people from entering the US even if you are a green card holder, or a US visa holder. you cannot enter the US while the ban is on. Downright frightening.
I am toying with the idea of going into a cutting phase to decrease my body fat. I already calculated that I need to consume around 1500-1600 calories everyday to be in a calorie deficit. Right now, I am reading about LeanGains which is a type of intermittent fasting. Basically you fast for 16 hours and just eat within an 8 hour window. I thought of doing one today and just eat at 12 skipping breakfast. Well, I arrived at work and it’s donut day. Donut won… so maybe another day. For now, it’s just an idea.
I survived my first bout of sickness for 2017. After spending my MLK weekend in Chicago, I contracted flu and I had to take 2 days off to rest and get better. I think I overestimated myself and the late nights and drinking took its toll. It’s something that I need to learn better as I grow older.
As usual, I am horrible in updating this space. I told myself that I will be better but laziness gets the better of me. I cannot even say that I am swamped with work because I am not. I just cannot find the strength to write down my thoughts and post it. I started a similar post but it ended up getting deleted. I need to stop being too hard on myself. No one is judging.
So let me try to go stream of consciousness mode and write stuff down:
– MLK weekend in Chicago. I tried to be spontaneous on this one. I was flip-flopping on this trip because of the weather. There was some forecast for icy rain weather so driving would have been treacherous. Luckily, there was a window on Friday and I grabbed that one to drive up to Chicago. It was an easy drive and Chicago weather was not that terrible at all — no complaints there. It’s the same old story in Chicago for me. Hang out with Joel, eat, go out in Lakeview and eat some more. What’s new is I got towed!!!! On Sunday, my car got towed because the towers did not see my car as an allowed parker. Apparently, the limit is around just 2 extra parkers. That’s $100 down the drain. I was finally able to try Peking Duck from Sun Wah which was amazing, and visited Seafood City as well! Before driving back to Cincinnati, I went to Seafood City again to grab a Jollibee lunch (chicken joy FTW) and bought food for the Cincinnati folks. For me, I just bought one whole chocolate mousse from Red Ribbon. It was amazing.
– Trump inauguration. He is officially the president of the USA and it’s very depressing as well. I want to give him a chance but news as of late prove that the causes I believe in won’t see the light of day while Trump and his congress are there. I am afraid for the people who are deeply affected by his presidency and policies and hopefully, we can make him a 1-term president. If nothing goes wrong, I can apply for naturalization in 2019 so I can vote in 2020! I cannot wait to finally be heard in the political discussion here. I posted a separate entry about the Women’s March and to this day, it still gives me chills!
– While in Chicago, I watched La-La Land. I don’t know if my taste has changed drastically but it did not really do much for me. It is good and well made but I think I am looking for something more thought provoking as of late. When I watched The Arrival, I was blown away with its premise and made me think more about it after the movie. With this movie, it felt like a steady one note movie that just delivered okay in my books. It will most likely garner a lot of accolades in the Oscars with all the buzz its getting. Good for them I guess.
yesterday, the he who must not be named got sworn in as the 45th president in the us. I tried my best to ignore it and move forward with my day. good thing I am nursing a flu that started last Tuesday so it was not that difficult. today is the women’s march in washington that aims to promote democratic ideals of women’s rights, equality, immigration protection and other important issues that are now in danger due to the trump administration.
it gives me chills and makes my heart swell that we are witnessing this show of public outcry. people will not be silent even if the system seems to be against them. it’s a show that people are willing to take time to protest what is important to them.
today is definitely a better day.